Saturday, April 04, 2009

It's been a while

I haven't been blogging lately and I don't know how much more I will. I am always thinking about things that I would love to blog about but when I have the chance to blog the thoughts aren't there. I seem to always have the beginnings of something in my head but I never seem to have the time to follow through. Sometimes I think it is because I read so many other blogs that sound so good and seem like the person has put so much thought into what they are saying and I don't feel like I am that great. I know that shouldn't matter and really who is reading this blog anyway. It's not like I have this huge blog following or anything. I have never really kept up with my blog and had any real theme to it. I guess it really is just random thoughts. That being said now I guess I will move on.
I recently rejoined Weight Watchers. I did this a little over 4 weeks ago. We finally had the money for me to go back. I think for me I just need to accountability and the knowing that I am paying for this and I want to do well. Some background-- In January 2006 I did Weight Watchers (WW) online for 6 months. Now here comes the scary honest part, when I first started then I weighed 267 pounds. This was about 6 months after I had Sophie. I lost a little over 35 pounds in the 6 months and kind of kept trying but didn't loose much more. As I reached the end of 2006 and got through the holidays I was back to 238. That is what finally got me to join WW in February 2007. I was so scared that first meeting, but then I made some friends and started talking more during the meetings. I met Alice who is a 60 something year old single mom of 4. I love Alice. She started out weighing just over 400 pounds. She has lost now over 125 pounds. We attended the Monday night meeting together for over a year. Then last March Justin lost his job and WW was something we had to cut from our budget. My last weigh in was on April 14, 2008 and I was 158.8. I was .2 away from having lost 80 pounds total. I really wanted to continue and thought I could on my own. It was hard and I was under a ton of stress and lots of life changes. In the end I don't think I did too bad. When I went back to WW four weeks ago I weighed in at 164.8. No I wasn't not thrilled with that but it could have been much worse. I have lost 6.6 pounds since going back. I only have 18.2 pounds left to get to my goal. As I look back over the last 3 years I have lost almost 110 pounds. It has taken me a long time but I know that it will not come back. I have changed so much of what I eat, why I eat and have added exercise to my life at least 5 days a week. I feel better about me and that is all that matters. I also thank God each day for His help and strength. I could not have done what I have without my heavenly Father with me each step. In my happiness and my disappointments he has been there for me. He will be with me when I reach my final goal. I hope you will be with me too.
Well this post kind of went in a different direction than I thought oringially but maybe this is what I was supposed to write about tonight. I want to keep this blog up so maybe I will keep trying.