I haven't felt much like blogging lately. I really don't know why. I haven't felt like I had too much to say. I have also been trying to keep myself busier and away from the computer. Abbie has also started playing games on the computer and takes a lot of my computer time away.

We are going through the Purpose Driven Life book at our church right now and have started small groups to go along with it. We are hosting one at our house on Tuesday nights. It amazed me last Tuesday how much I have missed the close interaction with out adults. I was amazed also by how comfortable I felt. I wasn't afraid to talk and to voice my opinion. I am excited about tomorrow night and how things will go. There are only 6 of us, but I like it that way. It' s 3 couples and we all have 2 children. They are all somewhat close in age so it works out well. It's been exciting to see some changes in our church.

I am looking forward to our vacation here soon also. We will be in Vegas from May 12-17. I am just so happy to be getting the chance to see everyone again. I would also like to get to spend sometime by someone's pool. I would love to get a little bit of sun. I also can't wait to be in the warmer weather. It's supposed to be 52 degrees for the high tomorrow. Hello!! It's almost May.

Mother-in-laws

I thought that it was the husband who was supposed to hate his mother-in-law not the wife. I don't hate Justin's mom, but I don't know how much she cares for me. She handles me at an arms length and just bugs me to death. Sometimes I feel as if she thinks that I am the antichrist trying to take her son away. I would think that after 6 1/2 years of marriage she would be over losing Justin to me. She just has this habit of making me feel like I am dirt. That I never let her spend time with the kids and that I am the only one able to make decisions around our house. She still thinks that I made Justin move to Las Vegas. What she doesn't realize, even though I have mentioned it, is that it was more me wanting to move back to Cincinnati than Justin. There really is no pleasing her. It just hurts me sometimes the way she is. I get so jealous of my sister because she gets along great with her mother-in-law, and so does my best friend. She considers her MIL to be one of her close friends. I never thought that I was a hard person to get a long with. She could make an effort on occasion to see her grandchildren. Why should we have to call and see if they want to get together, why can't she just stop by. Basically it's because she thinks that I don't want her to do that even though I have told them that they can come by at anytime to see the kids. She just really got under my skin today and it has just really hurt my feelings and I know I should talk to her about it, but I don't know if I can without her thinking even less of me. I know that I will end up saying something that is sarcastic, because we all know that is how I am, and then she will just think I hate her even more. Why does it have to be so hard.