What ya doin'

Abbie's new favorite question-- What ya doin'?? It takes some other forms like What do you think you are doin'?? I think that it comes from me constantly asking her What she thinks she's doing? Abbie is a very independent little girl who likes took look at everything. Her favorite thing to do is read. She is always looking at books. It's so cute when I go and get her in the morning and she's been awake and she's laying on her stomach reading a book to her baby dolls. She reminds me so much of myself when I was young. She loves to help out, but at the same time she can get in the way. She is so sweet (most of the times). Kids they just melt your heart sometimes.

Missing Community

Today I find myself missing my community, my family away from home, my friends. I miss The Fish House, Apex and Canyon Ridge. I've been questioning a lot lately if we should have moved back at all. Abbie loves being around her grandma and grandpa Clark and her mama rose and papa gary. I am so happy that she is around her grandparents, but what about me. Where's my support and community? We want to start a house church but Justin's job isn't the greatest with giving us the time to do so. That's a whole other thing. At church this morning the pastor was asking what was our Faith billboard. What shows us that God is there with us faithfully watching us. I can't really say what mine is. I feel trapped where we are and so does Justin. I have always had a strong faith that no matter what God was there directing us and guiding us. Was I wrong about moving here, was he trying to tell us not too or is there something here we are supposed to be doing that we're not.
The church we are going to is the one I grew up in. I love Dave our Pastor he does a great job and he's just in his late 30's. Most of the church is 50's or older and things are still a little behind times. They try to do more upbeat music but it's just not the same with a piano and organ. My mom called me after the evening service tonight to tell me there were drums set up. This week is the Christian and Missonary Alliance Prayer Conference and it's at our church. There will actually be a full band doing worship during the week. It's so funny that she thought to call me. My mom knows that Justin isn't happy with the worship and she wants him to come and see that it could be better. Justin's biggest problem is that he doesn't get home till 2:00am on Sunday and then gets up at 8:00 to go to church. Oh I could probably go on and on about being sad and lonely and that may be my problem. I need to look at the brighter side of things.
We are going to have a dinner at our house in a month to see who maybe interested in a house church. A good friend of mine here is helping me out. I have missed having people in my home. I felt a part of something then. I miss eating with friends on Sunday night after Apex. That was my second house church. You all were my family away from my family. I know that I never got too close with too many people but I loved each one of you. It's funny that it's been 10 months now and I still have a void that I need to fill.

Onto something a little happier. It's fall here now. The weather is getting much cooler all of the sudden. We had a big rainstorm the other night. The wind brought the Kings Island sign down. Those of you from here know what that big sign that has been in front of Kings Islands looks like. They keep saying it wasn't a tornado. It was only 59 degrees today. After reading Cheryl's blog it made me laugh how she wants cooler weather. I kind of miss the warmer weather but it's nice to have fall. Justin is loving it, but just because it makes him think of Christmas.

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

Happy Day!!

Today was such a great day. I finally got my Ohio drivers license. I had been putting it off because I had to take the written test again. I'm now an official Ohio resident again. At least it didn't take me as long as it did to get my Nevada license. I lived in Las Vegas for a year and a half before I got my license.

My sister is in town from Florida and she watched my kids for me today. I watched her two boys one day last week so she watched Abbie and Kaleb today. It was so nice to get to go out on my own with no kids. I wish it could happen more often. I probably spent more money than I should but I had fun.

Justin is really wanting a new job. He's just not sure what. He is thinking about getting back into Chick-fil-A. There are a couple opportunities here but he still just doesn't know. I don't know what to do for him anymore. He just doesn't know what to do. Then there's his brother Jim who still doesn't have a job. Of course you need to look for one to get one. I see Justin looking for a job more often than Jim.

Well on with other thought, Kaleb is getting into everything. He's not standing by himself yet, but he is holding onto things and walking around them. He's just so fun to watch. Abbie insists on taking care of him and helping him. She is so much like me it's scary.

Please pray that my husband can find a job and we'll finally be able to start our house church. We are struggling and I feel that Satan is really trying to keep us from doing what we came back here to do.